So it's been a few months. How've y'all been? I've been hanging on for dear life if we're being honest. But hanging on in the best way and with the biggest smile on my face. God is SO GOOD. He's been spoiling me as of late and I'm so unbelievably blessed. Here's what's been going on:
Background: I have been acting since I was four years old and entered Baylor with an intended Bachelor of Fine Arts in Theatre Performance. I made a deal with my parents that we would give it a year and then reaccess the plan in May.
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| My gorgeous theatre freshman class |
When January rolled around I realized just how close that conversation was and started to stress. A lot. I got cast in a really awesome Post Modern Workshop Scene with some of my closest friends and had a blast with that. Yet that sense of unrest was still there, constantly nagging at me. The non theatre classes were pulling at me, and for the first time ever, the stage wasn't where I wanted to be. It was terrifying. I spent so much time trying to figure out my future for me. Trying to plan out what was best for me. Trying to figure out where I wanted to be. (Sounds pretty selfish doncha think?)
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| The Post-Modern Scene "Play" |
Awakening changed that. God changed that.
You can read about the Awakening retreat here. God really challenged me that weekend to relax in Him. My friend Maddie pointed me to Proverbs 31 "She is clothed with strength and dignity and laughs without fear of the future" That last part was a wake up call for me. Had I been laughing? No. Not even a little bit. It occurred to me that God knew the plan. He made it and He made it perfect. So I decided that I would sit back and let him take the reigns.
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| My Awakening Family & Our "I'm Offended" Signs (You had to be there) |
The Tuesday after Awakening I remember specifically waking up and saying "Okay Lord, I'm laughing today."
Biggest understatement I have made in awhile.
If I were actually laughing I don't think I would have come up for air once. The Lord divinely guided that day right down to the people I interacted with on the sidewalk. My professor in my favorite class (whom I kind of want to be just like) gave me some incredible advice along with some pretty crazy opportunities, my advisor emailed me the second I got out of that meeting, I talked to an old friend for the first time in months, saw another one randomly, led a bible study where the Holy Spirit WORKED MAGIC, and basically just let God do His thing. I remember sitting in the car with my Big that evening going over how awesome that day was and finally exclaiming "Okay Lord, if this is what You want, then I am in." The most incredible tangible peace came over me. It was the first time in almost 3 months I'd felt that content with my life.
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| How I am feeling. (Also how adorable is this little girl??) |
So I switched my major. The Lord showed me that while I will always have a passion for theatre, it's time for me to step off the stage and go somewhere new. I am now a Great Texts (think Literature) major with a double minor in Philosophy and Creative Writing. It's a huge switch but not surprising to those closest to me. I am so very excited to see more of God's plan.
That decision (to sit back and laugh without fear of the future) has changed everything these past two months. God has been spoiling me in the most unbelievable, wonderful ways. But that's enough for today, I'll be explaining the rest of my wonderful end of semester tomorrow :)
Happy Summer Everyone!
